Today marks our new countdown in the double digits for our wedding countdown. That’s right people! We’re at 99 days! YIPPEE! With such a long engagement, I have to say it’s so exciting, but a little scary.
Yeah I said scary.
Why? I’m not exactly sure. To be honest I have lots of things swirling in my mind and can’t exactly pinpoint all the time what I’m thinking when it comes to this wedding. I am SO incredibly excited about it, but I can’t help but feel scared that it won’t all come together (even though I know it will). And what’s even worse? People I know that are getting married and are worried about decorations, money, etc…all I’ve been saying is “Hey, don’t worry! At the end of it all, you’ll be married!”
So why can’t I take my own advice?!
That…I’m not sure quite yet. However, a lot of my fears were exposed last night as I had a HUGE meltdown (*cue ugly cry*)
You see, work…(you know, my new old job) is crazy right now. I run an after school program for a high school in town and currently I have no staff to help me. This week, almost every day, I’ve had 33 kids all to myself. Needless to say, it hasn’t been easy since some of the kids are pretty crazy. Not only that, but my lovely schedule of 11 am-7 pm isn’t going to be here next week. Why? Because I start classes again.
I’ve done the whole school and work thing before. Heck, I’ve done it with wedding planning added to the mix too. I always had decent hours though so it was no problem. This time, it’s different. Starting on Monday, I have to be at work at 7 am for morning tutorials with my kiddos. Then, I have class from 12-2:30, and then have to be back at work from 3-6. To make things more worse than an 11 hour day, I am NOT a morning person.
So yeah my meltdown last night included of us running out of time since last night was our last triple digit countdown day, work being so crazy right now and it getting even crazier, and school starting on monday (which…i still need to get books).
You guys, please tell me this gets better. I don’t know how I’m going to survive this semester with working, school, and getting married.
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