They never tell you that the day before your wedding it doesn’t really hit you yet. In fact, it barely hits you that you’ll be married when you’re at your rehearsal and your rehearsal dinner.
In fact, our rehearsal dinner last night- was nothing short of absolutely amazing. I laughed, I cried (by the way, our wedding singers are so amazing), and I felt so loved by our families and friends. I was so happy to finally give everyone their gifts and show how really appreciative of them we are.
I am swirling with all kinds of emotions today. I woke up at 6 am on my own (I went to bed at 1 am) and I don’t even need to be up until 7:30. I’m excited, nervous (who thought I’d ever be nervous), and most of all..anxious. Oh, and by the way, they never tell you WHY you’ll be nervous for your wedding day. It’s not because you’re getting married, it’s because you wonder if you’re going to be a good wife (well, and the fact that you’ll actually BE a wife, and responsible for another person). It’s also because you finally realize “Hey, I’m an adult now,” and being an “adult” stands for so much. Sure, I’m 25- but I’ve never lived on my own, never been solely responsible for bills or groceries or making dinner every night. I’ve never been solely responsible for even cleaning a house (or in my case, an apartment). It’s definitely a scary (and exciting) thought, and I’m ready to conquer it.
Oh, and I also never thought I’d cry on my wedding day, and here I am just typing away trying not to cry. Plus, we heard our wedding pianist and singers for the first time last night and I had to do everything in my power NOT to cry because they were THAT good. I knew I should’ve bought a hankie on etsy! Haha.
All in all, I’m so excited to finally become a wife today. I can’t wait to say “I do” to Mathew, and promise to share my entire life with him. I am so ready to find out what the future holds. So this is me, signing off as a miss. I’ll see you all on the other side as a Mrs!!!!